welcome to my ramble corner!

HAII I’ve been on a huge creative rush right now so I’ve been working on my website a bunch!!! I’m working on redoing the pages I have up right now from scratch, but that’ll take me a while. I probably shouldn’t be working on my website right now but it’s fine.. kicks the 3 essays I should be working on under the bed….

I haven’t mentioned this before but this website is a HUGE step out of my comfort zone. I have a lot of anxiety around my art and stuff like that, so having my website up is super nerve wracking for me!!! But this is something I desperately need to get over since I do wanna share my work so I’m hoping by just putting it out there I’ll eventually get over it. It’s kind of like when you have something you know you need to do, and you know it won’t be that bad, but you keep avoiding it anyway, and then once you finally do it it’s super easy and takes you like 5 minutes.

I tend to ruminate like this a LOT it’s a big stupid problem and I am trying to work on it.. This is why my updates are way slower than I'd like them to be. I get embarrassed and stare at my site preview like this

for a few hours before I actually update anything. I’m getting better with this I swear I just need to adjust!!!

In other thoughts, I’ve been watching Golden Kamuy and it’s SO good.. A lot gayer than I thought it’d be? But I’m so invested in all of these characters even if the guys I like KEEP. DYING. No spoilers here but FUCK!!!!!!!! They’re too endearing and then they die immediately guysPLEASE. PLEASE.

Ogata is probably my favourite, but I also feel like he’s definitely a fan favourite.. Also Asirpa!! I love her so much she deserves everything nice and good ever. I'll definitely write more about them both once I make my media log since I don't want to put any spoilers here. Ogata’s a weird little freak. I love him. Look at his eyes. You can just see it all in his face

I think you should watch Golden Kamuy ESPECIALLY if you like big buff gay men. Thank you. It's also just a really good anime and it makes me want to cry a lot.

Other than that all I'm really doing is schoolwork.. not a lot to write about.. there's a few community event sorta things happening right now though, so maybe I'll check one of those out. I dunno! Buh bye!!

It's been a while since I actually PROPERLY made anything for my website.. oopsie.. I always struggle with committing to any sort of representation of myself BUT. I've committed to my new mascot sona guy. His name is Penny. I love him a lot. The other two didn't get names because they were just Me but Penny is both me and his own little guy! Very important!!

ANYWAYS the complete overhaul of my website was just because it didn't feel like me at all,, I do NOT like being stuck in a singular form of expression and I kind of did that to myself with my old theming. I couldn't tell you why I thought conforming to a strict colour palette was a good idea for me of all people. (￣︿￣) I'm so much happier with everything now though YAAYYyayyy throws confetti into the air!!!!

I'll be more consistently updating (or at the very least working on) updating the site!!! It's currently school holidays so I'll try to get a few pages up n' running before I'm sentenced to working on my english again.. I have a lot of things I really REALLY want to talk about but I feel like I should reallyy finish my basic pages first. Which I should. The one and ONLY reason I haven't made a shrine for hit upcoming game GIMMIKO yet is because I promised myself I wouldn't until the full game is out. It's only a demo at the moment but I'm obsessed. It's a problem. This is my Merci cutout he watches me sleep

he's not centered because i don't like him

I got off topic mmm I took down my other two blog posts because I was a little embarrassed, but they'll be in the archive whenever I get around to doing that. My blog IS just to dump my thoughts, but I wanna put more effort in putting them to paper, which I don't think I really did there!!!

That's all I have to say (here) ((for now)) but I'll be back soon!! Before I go you should wishlist GIMMIKO on Steam and play the demo and then talk to me about it Please please I'm going crazy all I do anymore is draw Merci